But then there is the
night—the times when our emunah must come from deep
within, for we do not have our faith strengthened by the
obvious. Those are the times we refer to each night, after
kriyas shema, when we say emes ve’emunah—“true
and faithful,” for at times when Hashem’s hand
is hidden from us, we still remain faithful, even though
we must remain in the dark, and cannot understand His ways.
When a Jew retains his
emunah in the darkest times, he affirms his faith during
the day as well. He can say the words of
Tehillim, “Nosato l’rei’echo nes l’hisnosess”—You
have given a banner to those who fear You, that it may be
displayed. The word nes can mean a test, for when a person
passes a nisayon, he proudly carries the banner of Hashem.
Nancy passed many nisyonos in
her life. No matter what the situation—in public or
in private, in New York or in the distant places to which
she traveled, she gave to others
more than she gave to herself. Her bein odom l’chaveiro was always exemplary. She taught many to guard the sanctity
of Shabbos, and that there would be no cost too great when
it came to kosher food. She was immersed in the secular world,
yet always remained above it. An avid cyclist, Nancy displayed
the banner of the cyclists throughout the competitions that
she entered. I wonder if she knew the real banner that she
displayed throughout her travels—the banner of nes
l’hisnosess, the banner of Kiddush Hashem.